Elin Nordegren said she never had an inkling.
She said she never hit her famous husband with a golf club.
She said she's never felt so sad and devastated, and hopes she never will again.
All this and more from the woman the world has waited to hear from since that Thanksgiving night in November that shattered her marriage and the carefully crafted image of Tiger Woods.
"I've been through hell," Nordegren said in an interview with People magazine released Wednesday, two days after she and Woods were officially divorced. "It's hard to think you have this life, and then all of a sudden -- was it a lie? You're struggling because it wasn't real. But I survived. It was hard, but it didn't kill me."
She and the couple's children, 3-year-old daughter Sam and 18-month-old son Charlie, have settled a mile from her ex-husband in a rented, five-bedroom house in a gated community in Windermere, Fla. -- where Woods needs her permission to get past the guard. The two are sharing custody of their children.
She credits therapy and long runs with helping her deal with the last nine months, and she also kept a journal of her thoughts and emotions. "I haven't gone back to read what I wrote in December and January; I'm afraid to," she said.
She has not watched "one minute of golf." But she can laugh at things now, calling those Saturday Night Live and South Park parodies of her "pretty hysterical" (though totally untrue).
"She's been amazing," said Mia Parnevik, for whom Nordegren was working as a nanny when she met Woods more than a decade ago. "She has held her head high. ... To go through what she's gone through is not humane."
She is not without scars, though. In the days before the divorce was finalized, Nordegren's long, blonde hair began falling out.
"She's held her head high. She has not caved in," said Parnevik, wife of pro golfer Jesper Parnevik. "She's not said bad things about him, and that's kind of an easy game to get into."